Jesus camp

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. Nothing in particular, just random issues around me. It’s nothing new, but usually I feel the need to just sit and write them down. It’s more like thinking things out loud, but just for the sake of letting it out, not necessarily getting any solution. That would expect too much, I guess.

One thing in particular is a series of events (not unfortunate). First event was I picked up a movie documentary DVD in the unknowing of what kind of story in it.

Second event was just out of the blue someone I know who was anti Christian suggested (was it more like an order?) that I watch it. Coincidence? Even this person was willing to buy it for me. I said I already got the movie, just haven’t got the time to watch it. Still not suspecting anything I tried to browse what the movie (documentary) is about. If you're curious just read Jesus Camp .

Third event just stopped me from thinking and came to a decision. So I emailed a good friend of mine about the movie. He simply just said that there’s already too many anti Christian movement (and movies for that matter) that it would be a waste of time (to the least) to watch it.

Don’t you wish you could have a clear thinking like that and not having to waste your time and energy mulling over simple matter like this?

Slowing down by 0.1 mph

I wonder what the world would be if everybody in the world would slow down by 0.1 mph. I’m not talking about the people in rural areas who could sit all day long doing nothing, but more about people in big cities who keep moving around the clock. Even though they seem to sit still, their minds keep thinking, planning and focusing. Imagine the streets will be calmer, no rushing and no cutting roads. Imagine a relaxing stock exchange trading room. Phewww, I can imagine if our minds were like the clock on the wall in my room and we could hear the machine, the noise of the machines in our minds would definitely create a deafening noise.

I just find it amazing (and feel endlessly blessed) that after months and months of moving, thinking and working fast I could keep going on. I’ve never got serious illness that forces me to lie in bed and do nothing. Well I’ve had that, but I’m referring to the time after that illness (I think it was almost 10 years ago). So I am truly blessed.

Now back to slowing down, at times I could feel like my head starts to spin because they’re just so many things to think about and so many tasks to be taken care of. Recently I felt like one of these days I’d just exhausted and then collapse. Things would get out of control, I work harder and harder just to find as I study my check list that the list only gets longer and longer. At times as I sped on the road I consciously slowed down the car just to get my control back and not being too rushy.

Whether I realize it or not (actually I do realize it), this speedy lifestyle only gets the worse of me. I’ve grown to be an impatient person, I talk fast (too fast for some people), think fast, drive fast, I even eat so fast I sometimes have to think hard what I had for lunch. I want everything to be done in an instant, I count the phone rings when I call people and complain if they don’t pick up after 5 ringings.

Everything went so fast I felt like I’m short of breath.

Now I’ve decided that by the end of this week I will slow down.
· The easiest realization to this is no more overtime, not later than 6 PM, turn off computer before I head home so I don’t get lured to open computer and check unanswered email when I got home later.
· Also what’s important is to stop by at my friends’ desk at the office. It’s just sad to see how we’re so caught up with work we lost the connection with other people, even those who we work with. What’s left was ‘good morning’ and ‘good night’.
· Start reading books.
· Then I will reserve tickets, could be to head for Jakarta, or other places. Preferably to some place with no internet connection, but maybe not. This will be done when I got it approved.

Right now, count from one, slowly breathe in, count to ten, and breathe out.